I owe all of you more than I could ever put into words, but I think now is right to write this. Some of you I have known now for longer than I care to remember! I have been so lucky to have these people in my life and I think they should know that. I am lucky just to know them, and even more so to be so close to these people. Most people think they are odd N. I am so glad we have found our friendship again. It's fantastic talking to you again and it is sad that we just realised how well we still got on just when you had to go away! You are fantastic and have helped me through so many difficult times recently, you know everything that is going on and you are one of the people I can tell literally everything too, regardless of importance. Z. I have known you through everything. Through the shit and fabulousness of the schools. You know me better than anyone, and I love you so much you would not believe. There is no one who makes me laugh like you, and the stupid memories we have together (pumpkin cake!) make me miss the time we used to spend together. You are elusive, but it's ok, because even if it has been months, it seems like no time has passed when we meet up. C. dear lord, I love you so much. You are mad and loud and outgoing and just fab. There is no one like you and there never will be! I don't think the world could handle it, but you truly are a gorgeous person throughout. M. You are epic, you have seals dressed as other things, for that reason alone, you are just epic. Seriously, you are adorable and so funny. T. I only spent some of 1st year with you, but because you are so lovely and cuddly and everything you became a fixture in my life. You introduced me to a pub nicer than the scAbington and when the shit hit the fan, you were there for me. A. I still have no idea how I am friends with you, but to be honest, I am so glad that I am. Your sense of humour is truly fantastic, and you are one of the most talented people I know. All those car journeys home from the pub will stick for a long time, and I will never be able to drive past that chinese again without being reminded of a still drunk/hungover, sleep deprived you. Sherif J. epic times at 6th form, further epic times outside of it. Not only are you fantastic when drunk, when sober, you are still willing to see a mildly neurotic post-break up me, which is nice. I will also never forget your face as you walked into my house one Halloween to see a 6ft lad dressed as a lady in fishnets or the millions of times you called him your life partner last time we were at the pub!
I have been so lucky to have friends that I can count on. At university I have met some of the most amazing people I ever could, and people who are just as neurotic as I am. H. you are simply amazing and lovely and gorgeous. S. you make me laugh so much, your spongebob obsession, and how keen you are, and also how we both sit in the crack of love. N. you are so strong, even though you might not think you are. You are girly and sweet and strong, it's gorgeous.
Other N. I know things didn't work out with us, but you are lovely, and sweet and funny, and I am so looking forward to building a friendship between us despite what happened otherwise.
T. remember band practice with Hairy Pork? You are so sweet, it's sad that you are up North, but you know, bad things happen to good people.
M. I have known you since that crappy Academy school. You are one of my best friends and I treasure you so much. Despite the fact we have argued when we were younger, it is so nice to have a close friendship with you even though you are far away. I love being a part of your life, and I hope you like still being a part of mine. You know me so well, and you know everything, you always have. I am so lucky to still have you in my life despite school changes, uni etc.
I could carry on, but to be honest, I'd be repeating myself. My friends are one of the key reasons I am still here and regardless of whether I have known them 10 or 2 years. I love them all dearly. I be perfectly honest, I lost a lot of friends and gained friends who now I don't know what I would do without. For me it's not how often I see them, it's just how good it is when I do see them, and the fact that we still manage to stay in contact despite distance and work and uni and everything. I'm so lucky as I never found a reason to like myself, but these people found something that I didn't see, and for that I am eternally grateful.
This is a bit of an odd post I know, but I have been thinking about it for a while, as you rarely get an opportunity to say these sorts of things.
Love.
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Ilysm.
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