Sickness still and shopping

Hello! I am still really I'll but I will try and just do a little post today.

Basically I am writing about anxiety in food shopping. The short story is I have an eating disorder, and I am in out patient recovery for it. But today is not the time to discuss that story. In addition to this I am just an anxious person.
Food shopping thus, is a HELL for me. I spend like hours wandering round, panicking about what to buy, whether it is ok to buy that more than something else, I get scared that I will forget something. I get scared just about buying the food, because I have to eat it. I get scared that I will buy lots and lots of food and eat it and get fat. Seriously, it's awful. It's the worst thing ever. And I have had to go twice in two days because  I just cannot cope with planning ahead with food, or then I will panic about it then!
Ahhh it's awful.

But yeah today I had to go and do that. Drag myself to do my face and hair to look like a human, and then drag myself to do the horror of food shopping. And then I fell asleep! And did nothing else other than watch Never Mind the Buzzcocks, QI and Have I Got News for You. good stuff.

But I am still poorly, hopefully I will be more able to write an interesting post tomorrow :)

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